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Girlfriend... or more?

And as a poet I find myself in an awkward position.

In the center of a love torus.

Wondering if love is really meant for us...

                          all.

Or if at all...
                      Love is really reality
 - or just a brain chemical reacting
 to what we think we feel... "Is it real?" 

But this poet has touched lust
                                          - calling it love, 
                                                                    ....trading it for compassion

so for me... 

to love so freely,

doesn't appeal to me...

    I simply lack the motivation.
for there has never been a situation
where love has left me anything...
                                                        but wounded.  

And I thought I could do it.
I thought I might find love  w a i t i n g  for me

because... one day I had an epiphany, 

but what seemed to be,

to me, 
was not.

           anything... really. 

and I lack the inspiration to pry again,
and there's really no reason to try again...

because I know
with her
             in the end:

I get   n  o  w  h  e  r  e.

And since I tend to go where

I'm wanted

I look elsewhere.

and my mom used to always say,

"Life's not fair but God is just."

And I figure He must 

be-

because so many times He's saved me

and He's kept me company.

and He never leaves me lonely.

So I rejoice when I am alone,

because I know...

soon, someone will come knocking

and my walls are down so there won't be anyone here

to stop 'em

so if she moves swiftly enough 

and if she's tender and tough

and if she's got her wits up

she might just

slip inside my heart

and shut the door. 

                  (but no one's ever done that before)

because I easily bore

but if she manages to intrigue me

if she doesn't try to deceive me but 

loves me honestly. 

Then I just might be hers to keep.

You see I'm a RoManTiC, hopelessly.

And I want to fall in love, for eternity

and I believe

                                                   "I do." 

means, "I'll never leave."

and... if you hold my hand while you promise me

just know that every morning I pledge to live honestly

and with integrity.

Knowing that i will raise my children to stand firm in their convictions

and to Love without restrictions...
or limitations.

Teaching them to be honest and have patience.

Teaching not with my words, but with my actions.

So that our next generation

will be people of action. 

but before I do all that....

I need a girlfriend.

and they always seem to find you when your not lookin' 

so I'll stop,

close my eyes 
and say,

"Surprise me baby. You don't have to call me when your coming, just knock."

R. Calloway :metamorpho:




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